♥♥ MY SAPPY SOAPY LIFE ♥♥

my craze for daniel wuuuuu

Saturday, 26 January 2008

daniel wu is sooooo bloody cute!!!!
oh man. i am damn deadly attracted to his puppy eyes..
HE IS A GODDESS!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
*salivating*

i must be mad. pardon me pls.

Saturday, 19 January 2008

i am feeling so bloody insecure now.
a really bad feeling is looming over me.
i really want to get rid of this feeling asap.

the thing i hate most in my house

Friday, 18 January 2008

if there is anything i can vote for the WORST thing in my house,
the winner definitely will go to MY SHOE RACK!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
it wins HANDS down for HORRORS OF HORRORS in the siew family.

OMG. it is a FUDGY DISASTER!!!!!!
10000000 pairs of shoes are being squeezed like TOFU in the tiny shoerack.
behind the first layer of shoes as seen on pic, behind them is another layer of say 100 pairs of shoes in 40 shoeboxes
in within the shoeboxes contains dad, mom, sispig, MY shoes.
so it is always guessing game whenever i open one shoe box then jump to another.
in another corner, lies a sleeping ground with shoes alone and counting lies 10 pairs at least.
they are constantly stomped over by my family and resembles pratas very much.

there is really NO place to stand at all to look for shoes and i have to bend over to look at them
i can't stand 1 min looking at the shoes at all
because i will spend more than 100000000 mins just to find out one pair of shoes.
WHERE ARE MY BOOTS!!!MY C&K HEELS?!

i am biting my nails, pulling my hair over the disgusting shoe rack.
all sorts of vulgarities)*$&)$&*&!* come out of my mouth while searching for my shoes.
I WAN A NEW SHOE RACK PLS PLS PLS PLS.

i can't stand it ANY LONGER.
i think i shall go pour all my shoes to my room.
seriously, all i wan for christmas, new year, valentine, anniversaries and so on is a NEW SHOE RACK!

now you know why i always only wear the black jelly shoes when i owe more than 30 pairs of shoes?!

3.5 year ann :)

This is for you baby. :)
today is our 3.5 year anniversary.
humans tend to take each other for granted after a long period of time.
This is going out to show my appreciation for him for being such a darling at times
i feel really blessed to have him as my boy.

thank you baby for...
never failing to love me more
never complaining for anything i ask you to help me do
never forgetting to kiss me goodnight everynight
never grumbles about how far you need to travel everyday from amk to bp just to see me
never forgetting to kiss my oily face morning
never throwing any temper at me despite me being super unreasonable
never demanding anything of me
never forgetting to wear our symbol of love
never giving up on me and always encouraging me to face things positively

always helping me to carry my items to singpost no matter how heavy it is or how rainy the days get
always buying my favourite food for me regardless whether it is convenient for you
always being my listening ear and being there for me
always being so patient and tolerant to my wilful acts
always being so understanding to my tantrums
always remembering to sms me at least 5 times a day despite no replies
always helping me with my work and massaging me when i am tired
always trying to pay for me when i eat
always pampering me with good food
always trying to love my family as well as me
always telling me you love me day and night everyday
always reassuring me of your love
always trying to give me surprises
always appearing on my doorstep to surprise me
always remembering our anniversaries while i forget them
always giving me my bday presents when i forget
always forgiving me when i become unreasonable
always loving me no matter how ugly, disgusting, irritating i get
always being so sweet towards me
always spending all your weekends on me despite that are ur days off army

trying to open your golden mouth during quarrels
being with me during my grandma's death
being with me through my most difficult time of my life
listening to my gossips despite not being interested in them
giving me enough space and privacy when i need them
coming out with romantic surprises when i complained of boredom
giving me cards/cookies/flowers just to surprise me
helping me to tidy my room at times
playing dota for only 4 hours when i requested u not to play so much games
lending me money in times of financial difficulties
making the candle of love that no one can replace
trying your best to satisfy all my requests
loving me even if i die
still hugging the piggy that i gave u 2 years ago
wearing all the gifts i gave you
opening up to me
telling me "i love you" when i complained of my insecurities
buying me my favourite newton oyster omelette, amk rojak during the weekends
spending effort to make my wired name as a xmas gift
turning up at cheerleading outings even though you feel awkward
accompanying me for my shopping trips and giving me "great" comments
accompanying me for overseas trips
buying a speaker and video cam just to talk to me on skype when i go to korea
loving me the way i am
holding my hand and hugging me tight when i am crying

but baby, the thing i really want to thank you is for...
loving me so much to leave me a space in your heart forever.
to be tolerant of all my mistakes and forgiving me no matter what i do
I am sorry for always hurting you but i really thank god for giving me you who loves me so much :)
nothing can beat having someone by your side who really supports you in everything you do, no matter how ridiculous it is.
i am blessed .. really truly blessed.

friends always ask me how to maintain such a long relationship or won't i get bored?
my answer is - it is never easy.
Without his love, care, undying patience and tolerance, we would have broken up 3 years ago..

thank you baby :)
i love you...

Thursday, 17 January 2008

Wait for you - Elliot Yamin
I never felt nothing in the world like this before
Now I’m missing you and I’m wishing you would come back through my door
Why did you have to go?
You could have let me know; so now I’m all alone

Girl you could have stayed but you wouldn’t give me a chance
With you not around it’s a little bit more than I can stand
And all my tears they keep runnin’ down my face
Why did you turn away?

So why does your pride make you run and hide
Are you that afraid of me?
But I know it’s a lie what you keep inside
This is not how you want it to be

So baby I will wait for you
Cause I don’t know what else I can do
Don’t tell me I ran out of time
If it takes the rest of my life

Baby I will wait for you
If you think I find it just ain’t true
I really need you in my life
No matter what I have to do
I’ll wait for you

Been a long time since you called me
(How could you forget about me)
You gotta be feeling crazy
How can you walk away
(When) Everything stays the same
I just can’t do it baby

What will it take to make you come back
Girl I told you what it is and it just ain’t like that
Why can’t you look at me?
You’re still in love with me
Don’t leave me crying

Baby why can’t we just start all over again
Get it back to the way it was
If you give me a chance I can love you right
But you’re telling me it won’t be enough

So baby I will wait for you
Cause I don’t know what else I can do
Don’t tell me I ran out of time
If it takes the rest of my life

Baby I will wait for you
If you think I find it just ain’t true
I really need you in my life
No matter what I have to do
I’ll wait for you

So why does your pride make you run and hide
Are you that afraid of me?
But I know it’s a lie what you’re keeping inside
That is not how you want it to be

Baby I will wait for you
Baby I will wait for you
If it’s the last thing I do

Baby I will wait for you
Cause I don’t know what else I can do
Don’t tell me I ran out of time
If it takes the rest of my life

Baby I will wait for you
If you think I find it just ain’t true
I really need you in my life
No matter what I have to do
I’ll wait for you
I’ll be waiting …

i think i am quite slow but i still love this song!
it kinda reminds me of someone.
esp the sentence " baby.. i will wait for you.."
sometimes i will think of the past and think about him.
Even though i hated him, but sometimes i think it was love.
so much efforts,tears,heartbreaking moments was spent.

Anyway, i am on a quite long hiatus!
preparing winter wear to go to beijing in a few weeks time!
suddenly the time seems to move so fast!
in 2 weeks time, i will be flying around asia~
Look out for the pictures and the BAZHANG pics of us :P can't help since winter.

yday dad scared us out when he suddenly vomited like more than 10 times.
initially he thought it was gastric and bore with the pain.
in the end, it became FOOD poisoning:(
it turned out that he ate nasi lemak that is left for a while that is bought by his boss.
He did it to save on food money.
Now think of it, dad is trying so hard to save hard-earned money
yet i waste money like no one business.
i think i really need to think about how i control my finances.

Dear friends, thank you:)

Friday, 11 January 2008

Thank you to all friends who asked, who cared during the last days of my grandma funeral
she is gone before the day mc king was cremated.
I have placed her in my heart already and have found peace.
I will be bringing her picture with me to korea.
thanks dearies :) it is time to move on for me and my ahma..

speaking of so, me and gilliann have booked and paid the ticket to korea.
Flying on the 24th Feb 11 PM to korea via korea air :)

and the best thing is : i still haven't learn a single word of korean.
BAHH. sometimes i wonder why i am going to korea for exchange..
there are so many things to be done : FYP , PA, VISA, confirmation of modules, $$$$$ matters,
and not forgetting talking to a bunch of people who don't uds you.
i heard korea sell lots of weird food though like what cow's balls or something like tt.
this kinda spoils my appetite when i think about korean food.

PEGGGG, you must really start tutioning me KOREAN NOW NOW NOW!

Friday, 4 January 2008

i am still at the funeral though.
at times, i do feel that my grandma has not left me.
i still remember clearly her voice and the way she called me.
i still remember her facial expressions.
i still rem how she always call me by "manman"
it seems as though the memory is still so fresh
it seems as though she has not left at all.
it seems as though it was just yesterday she talked to me.

i still remember her clearly. still very clearly. and it hurts.
i miss her so much. :(
she looks so different lying inside.
my heart broke when i heard that she passed away with breathing difficulties
i shed much tears when i saw her frowning made up face in the coffin.

no one expected her to go so early.
she could even talk when i visited her a while ago and a few days later, she was gone.
now i really learn that life is short.
treasure people around you before they are gone..

Wednesday, 2 January 2008

my grandmother is gone.
may she find happiness with the angels..